|Confession Translation (Abe no Yasuaki)|
|Written by Kaho|
|Tuesday, 05 December 2006 19:14|
Confession Translation Project~Abe no Yasuaki~
“What are you doing here?”
I turned around quickly when I heard the same cold, emotionless but yet familiar voice that I have missed for so long. “Yasuaki!” My heart rejoiced knowing now it is no more dream and illusions but he is really standing before me. Not only so, although Master Abe Semei had said that Yasuaki was broken, but I was most joyful to see that he seemed fine just like normal. Even the expressions on his face was still the same; there was no sign of joy or surprise when he saw me. I was then reminded of what Master Abe no Semei had said about the true identity of Yasuaki. Now his every action and words were all so understandable.
“What are you doing here?” He asked again.
“I…” I hesitated a little hearing how cold he sounded. “I received a message from you to come and meet you here because you needed my help…”
“A message? I did not send you any messages…” He paused for a moment and finally with realisation he whispered softly as if to himself, “It was shishou…”
“Master Abe no Semei? Why did he send that message to me?” I was perplexed.
Once again he looked back at me and replied coldly, “Now you know I was not the one that send the message, you can return now.” After he said that he turned and walked away.
“Wait!” I went after him, “Where have you been for the past few days? What had happened?”
Upon my questions Yasuaki stopped walking, and without looking at me he asked. “I was absent all these days without notice, were you angry?”
“Huh?” Although surprised with his question, I crossed my arms and complained. “Of course I am! How can you just suddenly disappear for three days without leaving a sign or a reason?”
“Anger is an amazing thing.” Finally he looked back at me, his eyes so clear and beautiful. “It is for the first time in my life someone had bothered to be angry over me. As the great Abe Semei had always been the support behind me, there were times people were unhappy with me but never to an extend of anger. You were angry at me for disappearing, and you were also happy to know I was alright, yet these are all emotions I could never experience. ”
My heart ached when I heard Yasuaki’ words. As a tool created by the great onmyouji Abe Semei, Yasuaki although held the appearance of a human being, he was unable to have a heart and experience the emotions of a human. However according to Abe Semei, Yasuaki had for the first time roused a desire, a simple wish to become human. It was his longing to be able to experience all the emotions of joy, happiness, sadness, or even anger. I bit my lower lip in frustration as I realised there was nothing I could do to help him.
“I guess I am also angry over myself.” I gave a sigh. “I knew you were troubled in the past few days and I realised that I could not help.”
“It is not your fault.” Yasuaki looked away again and to my surprise I saw a frown appeared on his unemotional face. “For the past few days I have not been functioning properly. I was considering about how to make you angry on purpose, whether my absence would have bothered you. Whether you will once again smile or cry for me. My entire mind was filled with the thoughts of you, and whenever I thought about you I realised the power I had within me decreased massively”
“Yasuaki…?” My heartbeat started racing when I heard Yasuaki’ words. Does he know what he is saying?! However Yasuaki obviously did not realise what was going on inside him as he continued. “I must be broken. I am a tool created by human hands and as I was only created by a human, I will eventually break.”
Broken…? I shook my head at his words, he is not broken but rather something else is happening to him. As Master Abe no Semei had mentioned, something is changing inside Yasuaki, he could not have emotions and heart and yet he had a desire. Not only so although Yasuaki had not noticed, but already he is experiencing frustration and irritation. He is gradually becoming human…
When suddenly I saw the seal on Yasuaki face disappeared. Instead of the shade of white, his face became normal just like everyone else! “Yasuaki! The seal on your face!!”
Yasuaki placed his hand on his face in shock and when he noticed what had happened he closed his eyes and droplets of tears rolled down his beautiful perfect face like pearl. I was struck dumb the moment I saw the tears Yasuaki shed. I ran up to him and felt my own tears rolling down too as I sobbed. “Yasuaki, the seal is broken…you are a human being now….”
|Last Updated on Tuesday, 05 December 2006 19:47|